so hurt

yes so hurt indeed

why did u do this to me??

left me with a broken heart

told me we would never part

then u left

left and took all my diginity, pride, and joy

my heart

can things ever be the same??

will i forever hold this pain?

*jazz player begins to fade into silence*

questions unanswered will long to remain

i wouldnt dare fail myself

if i do hell will freeze over

it would be sunless forever

would i dare fail myself

Hell no , i came to far

my grades never made it this far

oh would i really fail myself now.

I start to cry

The rain fall

I can  barley  see through my eyes

So fluster with pain

Cause she left

Now i drown my sorrows  with drugs and liquor

Feeling like this could be my last deep breath.

Is life worth living

When the love you knew is gone?

Is life worth living

When you can’t seem to be strong

Hoping you see the face you once knew

Open the door

To be happy again would seem like a dream

So i will sleep forever.

So if the rain is going to fall

It will stop eventually

And is life worth living?

Only god can tell me.

I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU

JUST THE THOUGHT OF ME FORGETTING YOU HURT MY HEART

THE THOUGHT OF ME NOT REMEMBERING YOU CANT HAPPEN

I WONT LET IT HAPPEN I GOT YOUR NAME OON ME FOREVER

I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU

I DONT DARE FORGET ABOUT YOU

I WONT FORGET ABOUT YOU

ALL THE FUN TIMES WE HAD TOGETHER FISHING AND PLAYING VIDEO GAMES

HOW CAN I FORGET YOU

SO I WONT DARE FORGET YOU CUZ YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART.

When the time comes to say goodbye I’ve now learned to say Hello,

Hello to the memoirs of our friendship.

When the time comes to say goodbye I say hello,

Hello to the days that are no longer of existence unfortunately for I appreciate them now more than ever.

So when the time comes to say Goodbye I say Hello,

Hello to Goodbye.

i feel like the only human here wit a bunch of bad people around me ,mother,father,sister,and brother and strangers here who cares less about me at all is this what i have to accept as my world ?. it is so dark on the sunny days when the cool summer breeze hit the monsters will play till they win this deadly game of russian rulett with money ,lies,sex ,and deceit am i one of these mutants is this making my world turn every day yes it is! yes it is! that’s whats happening yup and i am a victim who is running alone in these cold streetz.  

wondering, were my money went

what I spend it on

I want to look in my wallet

but afraid to look, cause what i’ll find

looking in my pockets

not looking to do nothing to get the money back

wondering were my money went

wondering if i should play the lotto

what numbers to play

dam i didn’t win

I’ll get it next time

what happened Saturday night.

I was so stupid for thinking

that consumption of alcohol is right.

Illusions in my head, I cant think instead.

Oh, how I feel so conjested.

Bad thoughts

I cant omit it.

I cant help but think that

demons were compressed in those cans of budlight.

My mind ran to my bed, but my feet felt so light.

I have to reach my bed,

I have rest my head, so i can regain my might.