dear cee-cee

i’m sorry about how our relationship is

i don’t know where i went wrong with you

maybe i was too hard on you? maybe i expected too much from you?

but thats only because I KNOW WHAT YOUR CAPABLE OF

your my oldest daughter

and you always dissapoint me

I DONT KNOW why you do the things that you do

you say you love me but thats something i just dont see

sometimes i feel you do things purposely to hurt me

why dont you see how smart you are and apply yourself to the fullest?

theres so much in life that i want you to see

DONT BE LIKE ME!!!!! i want MORE for you

i want us to work things out

we should be bestfriends

im ALWAYS going to be here for you when you need me …….

AND IM ALWAYS GOING TO FORGIVE YOU
I LOVE YOU!!!!

Centered in a world where no one understands me

Loving parents that im thankful for

And i very much do adore…i can be

Rude at times

Its not my fault…im

Sorry if i offended anyone, but NOT

Sorry for my thoughts, i just feel ALONE sometimes

And no one understands me

introduced with innocence

who would’ve guessed you’d be the one to break my heart?

your love was once a waterfall…constantly flowing

but then you reached a dead end without me even knowing

hug me, hold me, kiss me, was what you did everyday

i cant believe you left after I BEGGED YOU to stay

what happened to the love you had?
special things you used to do
words you used to tell me
made me believe your feeling were true
you were a fun experience; too bad it didn’t last

but what’s done is done you can’t change the past

i guess, like all good things we had to reach an end

but after the sun sets, it rises

a new day begins

i know that me in you have been through alot

but no matter how much i hated you,

I’VE ALWAYS LOVED YOU
you may not know this,

mabe i thought it was implied

but now that i think about it, how can you see my love

through all of my lies?

i know that no one will ever love me

as much as you do

and i appreciate you so much

IF ONLY YOU KNEW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU

i cry for you sometimes

im crying for you right now

i love you mommy…

please forgive me

Beads falling, thunder

Feet stomping on the pavement

Strong,out of the ordinary , tangy

The smell of old bananas

Showering, wind blowing, cold

A straw being poked in a slushy

smooth, lines different patterns

Gentle, soft  and coarse, strong, brittle

Terror, anxious, suspense

Windshield wipers

Crumbling rocks, pebbles, glass and dirt

Nature, Green vegetables

cold, shocking, slippery

A baby’s bottom, soft cheeks

Screams and a motorcycle rooming

 I am understanding and sensitive

I wonder about my future

I hear the walls talking

I see my mothers hurt

I want to reach my goals

I am understanding and sensitive

I pretend im not hurting

I feel my mothers pain

I worry about my education

I cry for my mother

I am understanding and sensitive

I understand i am smart

I say i will succeed

I dream this will be over

I try to stay focused

I hope i’ll be alright

I am understanding and sensitive

To make humanity more unified.

And the world a better place.

All you need is one pure heart.

Two hands to comfort, two foot to walk in righteouness.

Two eyes to invision a place of harmony.

Then mix your mind and imagination to taste that harmony.

Last but not least you need to turn up the heat on your conscience to burn,

All thought of harming someone.

Two gallons of tears, pain and sorrow

One cup of confidence

Half of a Keyshia Cole album

A large glue stick to patch up that heart of yours…lol

Two shoulders to lean on

One true best friend to help you heal

A lifetime supply of learning from your mistakes 

Drafty and strange, the walls candy edifice rise

Alone at last will try to be strong or sure –

If not now then when

There are plaster peaks reaching out the walls

From four sides a perfect square – to keep me

Safe in one place

I am Confident yet Shy

I wonder about my life

I hear my myself crying at night

I see my future

I want to take all of my mistakes

I am Confident yet Shy

I pretend that I am fine when I know I’m not

I feel my Mother’s touch

I touch m dreams

I worry about not becoming successful

I cry when I feel like I’m failing

I am confident yet shy

I understand that you only want the best for me

I say nobody is perfect,but I try

I dream about my life

I try to keep a smile on my face

I hope my words mean something

I am confident yet shy